Sickness

....do you ever think about
you getting sick?
Like really sick?

I do.

You know how people pray so often for healing,
I think about how God doesn't always answer that.

I like to ask him for healing if it's his will.

I'm not saying I'm right or better than others for asking like that,
but God doesn't always choose to heal people.

And sometimes, I imagine that I'll get sick. For life.
And I hope, that if that ever happens,

that I'll glorify God in that.

Be one of those people with a smile on their face even if their body is going through so much.

I imagine,
or rather hope that if I were in that situation,
that I wouldn't be resigned
but at peace.

Not saying I'm not willing to fight,
but to follow God's will is important.

I know someone like that, with a smile in their eyes and joy in their heart always. And they're sick.

It is so inspiring, and most of all,
God glorifying.
It forces people to ask,
how can they be happy?
Truly happy?
And persevere like that?

And then, the answer comes.
God.
It's him.
In them.

It takes the attention off of themselves and declares the reason for the hope that is in them.

I think it's beautiful when a sick person follows God like that. Oh how I desire a heart like that.