Stumped over a speech. . .

I'm supposed to be writing a speech for my graduation ceremony. (Yes, due tomorrow. I am a chronic procrastinator.)

But I'm stuck. I have one little idea, but even then, I can't seem to write about it. How do I begin? How can say goodbye? I do want to leave an impression, a lasting word of inspiration. I admit, I even want to be remembered and complimented after the ceremony is over. A bit of a selfish desire.

But really, shoving aside my little fantasies of temporary fame and power as I stand before the biggest crowd I'll have ever spoken in front of (though it won't be all that large),

I dream of leaving something behind me that matters. 

And in that, I pray to become invisible. I find the desire in me for attention and admiration, but I hope it will fade in comparison to my desire to speak words of life into these people. To strangers, family, and friends. I want to impart what God wants these people to hear.

Holy Spirit, when I get up in front of the podium, no matter how prepared or unprepared I am,
will you walk into the room?

I need you. My words and preparations and desires are futile without you. And God, you know how I could use some help on my public speaking.

Well, I've got to go. I'm going to go pray, then try to shake some of the rust out of my head.