I'm feeling crummy and grumpy. I haven't gotten the best sleep lately and I've wasted my time. Purposelessness, these past days, in my soul.
Wandering around, in this life.
This happens to me, during school breaks.
I get bad habits, and feel the distance, the lack of work, and become a lazy, fogged mess. And I always feel disgusting inside. I stop clinging to God, I think. It's like I don't need to because there's nothing to do anyways. That's what I tell myself at least.
This emptiness.
So this is what life tastes like without Him.
I need a dose of it sometimes.
A small, jarring splash of cold water on my face to remind me:
life is worthless without my King.
This seeking of myself ends in no joy.
I'm not made for this.
I'm a stranger in this world,
made for love alone.
The point of life is love.
But Misty Edwards speaks much better than I write about this all.
So I'm pointing you in that direction, now.
-If you are willing, would you watch this?
Play that. If you have the time. I know it's very long. But it helped me at least. Spoke deep into my heart. I don't think I'll ever forget that message.
May your days ahead be filled with purpose, friends,
minds saturated in truth always,
with the goal of love in mind,
and a heart following the lover of your soul to the end.
I pray that for you.
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