Just in case.

To a beautiful young woman,
my unnamed friend:

I wish things were the way they once were between us.

I miss how your eyes lit up when you talked to me. I miss your enveloping, strong hugs that were filled with love. I miss how you called me over. How you shouted goodbye as I walked away. I miss our conversations.

I miss when you let me in.

You allowed me in to see your pain, to hear your true feelings. You don't know how I honored I felt by that. You let me in. And that meant so much to me.

I miss you.

And this gap between us? Some days, when I think about it, it makes me ache. I ache inside.

I cried today. I cried for us.

Because I love you more than words can express. I've got a part of me snatched out because you're not here. And it's bleeding there. It won't stop bleeding.

But I can't win you back and I can't make things right, especially because I don't know what went wrong.

But I will always love you.

And I'll always be waiting for you.

Just in case.